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Assalammualaikum W.B.T

For 2 days I guess I'm not write anything here. Aku sibuk sangat dengan kerja yang diamanahkan. Terlalu sibuk untuk meluah perasaan. Tapi Insya Allah aku punya masa untuk meluah kepada Allah S.W.T.

Aku perlu membuat persediaan untuk 2 things which are very important for me. On next week the pentaksir will come to my school to evaluate the PLBS. My files if I'm not mistaken still not complete. On the same week I have to make a preparation for warm welcome visitors from SMK Bandaraya. They will learn about the E-Disiplin. Sometimes I just want to threw everythings. But the powerful word is be patience.

That will be happen on next week. HUh.....after 2 weeks I have to attent walk-in interview. Ya Allah...Hope I can do it. Insya Allah.

This month I'm facing with the tough days with a busy days, with a frustrated, exhausting, annoying and so on. maybe this is my test...

Oh ya..last night I join one forum. I hope this is a give from Allah for me. In this website/forum I'm join the bait muslim. Hope I can find someone here. Insya Allah... actually I'm not desperate by this is one of my effort in searching the right one.

One Call and change everything

Yesterday I got one sms from someone i didnt know. He keep sms and i also keep asking "who is this???". Silly questions huh~
I'm afraid if my students or my friends just playing around. But Last night he call me. For the first time I scold him. Asking him lots of questions...Non Stop questions!!! Hahahaha....I keep asking him where he got my number phone...How he knew my name and so on and so on...
After both of us cool down, then I know that he call and got my number from someone. Someone who help both of us to get a friend to live with...
We decided to meet each other...it means today. I already met him. This man is from pahang and work here at Sabah. He quite matured if compare with me...hahahaha.
For my first met I can say, he is a simple and cool man. Smoking person but at least he didnt smoke infront me. What else...He kept telling me about his background again...and again...
For me...Ok Lah...
I just can wait..because its not fair for him if I judge him so early right...So just wait and see!

This is the song he gave it to me

Bintang

Ku pandang diatas awan
Ku lihat bintang melambai
Ku hulur tangan menggapai... Tetapi tiada sampai
Ku tahu bintang menunggu namun apalah dayaku
Ku hanya mampu meratap
Di dalam ratapan sayu...

Bintang kau jangan bersedih
Bintang kau jangan menangis
Tiada mampu ku ke sana walau telah direncana
Bintang kau tinggi di atas
Ku duduk rendah di bawah
Hidup mu berteman bulan bukan insan kekurangan

Bintang jangan terus begini...
Nanti malam mu tiada berseri
Kita akan tetap bersama untuk selamanya...
Cuma lain suasana

( korus )
Bintang hentikanlah...
Tangisan yang akan menyiksa diriku
Bintang dengarkanlah...
Ada satu pesanan terakhir dariku
Bintang kau pergilah...
Kerna itulah yang terbaik untukmu

Bintang...
Percayalah hanya engkau satu di dalam hidupku

Bintang...

Smile at my face tears inside my soul

I knew this man for 4 years. Sad and laughter we always be together. Yeah...actually we decided to get married. I really admired this man because he never demanding, I means he never want me to like this or to be like that. He accept me as ME!!!
But this month everything change. He never return my called or texts. I wondering why and what happen. Deep in soul I'm scared if he will be change. I keep calling him and text him. But from day to day it became weird.
He refused to see me and I'm bet its something will be happen. I'm crying and pray hard for it.
But everything already been answer. This morning, when I woke up in the morning. I got 1 text from him. He want to broke up with me. He said he want to be get engaged with someone.
Truely... I'm so sad. I even cant live without him. In my life everything I will refer to him. I cant stand by myself.
I keep asking myself...Am I do wrong? Am I not good enough? The answer for my questions is I'm a successful women but in the other hand, he only a housekeeper.
But WHAT THE HELL THIS THING HAPPEN AFTER 4 YEARS??????
I never thought like that baby....for me you are perfect man. I'm so lucky to have you...
but why after we have a long journey you want to broke up with nonsense reasons.
But its ok because I will be ok. Maybe you have been created not for me. Maybe God create one nice man for me. Insya Allah.

Lesson

I dont know what happen with me. I still dont finish write my lesson for tomorrow. I took a leave on that friday. But still didnt do my lesson. Now, I'm still here infront my laptop but arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........

This is what I call LAZY CRAZY TIME...So???? its not my fault because I'm facing with the hardest time in my life.

Chaiyok...!!!

These are actually my third blog after many of my blogs had been attacking by spams. I dont know why its happen. I pray hard for it....Chaiyok!!!Chaiyok!!!

Michael Jackson

Last night I'm went to Jati Restaurant with my family. Actually I'm waiting for my parents arrived here. So before that I went to Survey supermarket near the town. Actually I trying to find a horrow+comedy story titled, "Jangan Pandang Belakang Congkak" but its still not in the market.
What I'm wanna highlight is why must many people bought Michael Jackson cd's when he already died????
Why when he still alive nobody took care of him??? I means concern with his songs, sociality with peoples, and so on. Why after his died many people going crazy buy this and that....I"M NOT SAYING WITH THE FAN!!!! I KNOW THE FAN DO LOTS FOR MJ.
But I'm saying here about the others. Before this many people and medias judge MJ with a headlines that I think is nonsense. If the readers still remember MJ was facing lots of rumours that can make his cariers collapse. Why nobody people around the world help him???
Today in one of local news said, ROH MICHAEL JACKSON BERKELIARAN <----What the hell of this??
I'm not angry with it but as a human being, with a great mind and soul. Why dont we sit back and think. If he is one of our relatives do you think he deserve to get this???

If you realise in our country have a singers, actors, or so on that you think its may become a legendary one day. We have to appreciate it before we lost it. Dont make this as a traditional ceremony. For example in Anugerah Muzik Terbaik and so on...dont give a reward after they gone BUT give REWARD when their still can SMILE at us back.

Upgrading

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